Don't Show Up to the Audition, If You're Not Ready for the Part...

With it being a new year, I vowed to myself, that I wouldn’t make any resolutions.  Not because I knew I wouldn’t adhere to them, but because I felt as if I was claiming something for myself, that I am not ready to possess.  At 27, for me, that’s a little disheartening, but hey, the truth hurts.  Every year most of us vow to lose weight, become financially stable, and not end the year single…Wait, maybe that’s just me, BUT LET ME JUST BE REAL WITH MYSELF…I am really not doing anything to accomplish any of those things at this very moment.  My conclusion…maybe I am not ready. 

So we already established that we can be our own biggest inhibitor when it comes to finding happiness...  Humph…how do we inhibit ourselves???? ONE, we cast ourselves in peoples lives, but we never get starring role.  I always say I want to be a star, but I keep bombing my auditions...
Discussion, why do we do boyfriend-girlfriend things with people that do not intend on being just that, or do they?  We will “kick it”, “chill”, “go out with”, and “boo up” with anyone and have expectations, but we won’t be vocal about them.  Why?  I, for one, would like to think that any person that I do these things with, would have sense enough to understand just how long I’ve been single, and that I almost always want more.  Wait, but that’s asking one to be psychic or to be able to read minds.  I’d be vocal about it, but what would he think?  I’m too cute to be rejected, so some things are better left unsaid.  Why should I be vocal about it?  He should know, OR if he wanted it to be more than something else, why hasn’t he said or done something? 

Case and point? If you let it go on for so long without any expectations, how can you expect them to be open to change?  They have already gotten accustomed to doing just what’s been the norm.  Probably even looking for someone else who will be vocal about their needs and not someone who wants to just be a “boo thang” as you have been.  Sadly, that’s what hurts the most, since that may have been what you have always wanted, but who knew?  Definitely, not him.  Secondly, anyone that you have allowed to play such roles and take up your time will continue to do just that, but who has time to waste these days?  I spent at least a good year wasting time, but I feel that nothing is more valuable to me than my time, and it WILL not continue to be wasted.  So let me vocalize what I expect out of a person so my time will not be wasted on the wrong things and most definitely not the wrong people.  So you can hold auditions if you'd like, just make sure someone eventually gets the part or you will always have these potential shows but no syndication...maybe I'll elaborate on my shows later...it gets better...